应该清醒了

明天是复活节了， 嗯。 可能是快要考SAT了， 就弄得我现在干什么都是提不起来劲儿。 好像吓着了。不知道怎么的，一下子不知道要怎么办了。现在呢，我真的很想去MIT。不过就现在的成绩真的很难呐。 真的不知道，该怎么办？一下子觉得自己好像有N多事要做。要出去打工，要考SAT，要学习，要作家事，要照顾好兔子，要做作业，要照顾好自己，还要照顾别人的感受。不知道了，反正，一下子好多事儿让人不爽，郁闷。真的不知道该拿自己怎么办？我想我想好了，从明天起要跟我的电视剧说拜拜了！真的觉得自己没有脸再浪费时间了。就为了以后会有个好的未来真的要为自己努力一下了。但是，真的很想活的随心就好！想边旅游，边工作。自由自在的活着，这一辈子被太多的东西束缚着。只想好好的照顾好自己。活的开心就好。

Tired out

In class, Ms. Parham is not here today.
We suppose to write our blog, but I am just sooo tired this week.
By the way, we had PSAT test this week.
Tired, bored...

Stay up late for WL HW.

I don't like writing

Whenever i start to write

my head, my brain

become EMPTY.

I hate to be empty.

Why, why, and why.

I don't know.

Should I stay up even LATER

to finish this assignment?

I don't know.

Maybe, maybe i should go to bed...

Since i am already late, already empty, already wore-out

And its already really late.

At the edge of the cliff.

I really don't deserve this why why why why why why why why why why why why???
For a thousands of times I thought about to endure endure, but they see me as a stupid ass.
I don't know, don't know what should I do?
I just dont know what I did is wrong. Be honestly I don't think i did anything wrong.
I told them I dont wanna to stay at this family anymore, because i know they would ask me to do be friendly with her which I dont even to look at.
Homeless, homeless, homeless, homeless, homeless.
始终，还是自己一个人。
世界这么大，却找不到我的家。。。